… yet again!
White police crime, racism, hate … needs to stop!
2016 Documentary on the founding of #BlackLivesMatter
… 2020 is just a continuation and a LOUDER cry for justice!
NOTE: This is a documentary, from 2016, (and I watched the whole piece!), there is NOT ONE MENTION of Obama in this piece.
Where was Obama when his folk got killed on the street?
The love for money and power and recognition, the safety of riches … kills people.
I pondered a lot about Emily Dickinson’s grief poems, especially one particular phrase: “grief is a thief”.
But to me grief is not a thief.
Premature death is.
Grief is just breathing out what death breathed in.
Grief is a gift, that helps unclutter the traumatic mess I find myself in.
Grief is no thief, it gives ground to the bottomless pit I keep dropping in, even though the ground is murky and dark, slippery slopes as far and wide as your eyes can see.
I keep sinking in, swallowed by tangible mud, being pulled down and I FEEL it and the darkness and the resistance to drown, and I fight this nonsense. No sense to taking life like that.
I’m an alien in a human land. I lost my way. But I grieve.
I grieve because I’m alive.
Life is no thief. Death is.
Grief is just breathing in and out a breathless life.
Grief is a gift because it tells me I’m alive.
Death is the thief that stole life!
Grief is that gift that let’s me feel the suffocating mud. Just about.
Life IS unfair
Good people DO die
Young people DO die
Bad people DO absolutely live long and die peacefully in their sleep … where’s the thief here?!
Grief sucks, but it is just a result of life breathing out what death took in.
Yeah death, you won again.
You came and took.
You didn’t ask permission
And guess what, now I won’t answer your non-asked permission to thieve!
But one thing you can’t do, you can’t steal my grief, because that’s mine un-apologetically, you fucker!
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#793, c. 1863 Emily Dickinson
Grief is a Mouse —
And chooses the Wainscot in the Breast
For His Shy House —
And baffles quest—
Grief is a Thief — quick startled —
Pricks His Ear — report to hear
Of that Vast Dark —
That swept His Being — back—
Grief is a Juggler — boldest at the Play —
Lest if He flinch — the eye that way
Pounce on His Bruises — One — say — or Three —
Grief is a Gourmand — spare His luxury —
Best Grief is Tongueless — before He’ll tell —
Burn Him in the Public Square —
His Ashes — will
Possibly — if they refuse — How then know —
Since a Rack couldn’t coax a syllable — now.
I worked at Pret A Manger and survived systemic workplace bullying during bereavement that involved HR, the top leadership, HQ and even the now “retired” former CEO Clive Schlee. I declined 4 settlement offers if I am silent about my ordeal. But I rather speak out to help others. For an overview of important blog entries of my experience with Pret, please visit “My Ordeal with Pret A Manger”. The little arrow to the right next to each heading will lead directly to the post.
An incomplete list on what other Pret staff say about Pret’s bullying environment: Caught in the Act Bullying at Pret.
I tell my story for the first time verbally in below audio player interview on a podcast by The Adam Paradox, and wrote two articles in the Scottish Left Review.
Thank you for reading/listening.
Interview:
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Public Service Songs vs. Coronavirus
Musical heroes Julie and Buddy Miller, y’all
»Concerning Bleach«
Don’t, don’t, don’t drink bleach
It will kill you and you will be dead
Don’t, don’t, don’t drink bleach
No matter what the president said
In the president’s mind something malfunctioning lurks
But yours is a fine mind and everything works
So don’t, don’t, don’t drink bleach
It will kill you and you will be dead
Don’t, don’t, don’t drink bleach
No matter what the president said
Don’t drink bleach
it’s bad and it hurts
See if the president would try it first
Don’t, don’t, don’t drink bleach
It will kill you, and you will be dead
— Buddy and Julie Miller
»Stay Home«
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An incomplete list on what other Pret staff say about Pret’s bullying environment: Caught in the Act Bullying at Pret.
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Worth a read.
I found a video on YouTube about someone’s experience with the UK mental health system during bereavement and other issues especially trauma. You can get regular 6 session CBT therapy, but from a trauma background, this hasn’t helped and in the UK they use this form of therapy as a one-size-fits-all, even for severed autism I heard on the radio once.
I can more than underline his experience. People in the U.S. or Germany don’t believe me how IMPOSSIBLE it is to find help. My own odyssey through the mental health system I don’t want to list anymore like I did before as I feel like a failure and have even been “victim blamed” by a Psychologist last year.
With the Covid-19 pandemic, thousands of bereaved and traumatized families and medical workers, this will get even worse!
— Sorry the video has been deleted on YouTube — .
But another video from a Psychotherapist who works with clients with PTSD is constantly on the NHS’ case why they don’t diagnose trauma. My suspicion is, it’s a financial issue.
“What about trauma?”
Just a few articles on the Government cuts since 10 years:
From The Independent:
>>> Mental health trusts left with less funding than 2012 due to government cuts
From The Guardian:
>>> Number of NHS beds for mental health patients slumps by 30%
From Keep Our NHS Public:
>>> Austerity and NHS cuts: wrecking our mental health
I worked at Pret A Manger and survived systemic workplace bullying during bereavement that involved HR, the top leadership, HQ and even the now “retired” former CEO Clive Schlee. I declined 4 settlement offers if I am silent about my ordeal. But I rather speak out to help others. For an overview of important blog entries of my experience with Pret, please visit “My Ordeal with Pret A Manger”. The little arrow to the right next to each heading will lead directly to the post.
An incomplete list on what other Pret staff say about Pret’s bullying environment: Caught in the Act Bullying at Pret.
I tell my story for the first time verbally in below audio player interview on a podcast by The Adam Paradox, and wrote two articles in the Scottish Left Review.
Thank you for reading/listening.
Interview:
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A re-blog that I want to leave uncommented. No words needed.
I re-blog this because it is important. I have been on the UK mental health waiting list for therapy for 3 years now and haven’t even been diagnosed yet. But I believe I suffer PTSD or even C-PTSD with the double trauma of my brother’s complicated death AND having been bullied in Pret.
I sabotage myself now in pain and not wanting to go on.
I’ve lost hope, and now with the worldwide trauma of the virus how can anyone find help?
20 minute Podcast:
> https://www.spreaker.com/user/geerishramgolam/self-sabotage-series-post-traumatic-stre <
The podcast talks about what it is like to live with PTSD and constantly believe that something bad may happen. It also talks about coping skills one can develop to get out of the vulnerable state.
Listen to “Self Sabotage series: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder” on Spreaker.
Much love,
Geerish.
I re-blog this because it is important. I have been on the UK mental health waiting list for therapy for 3 years now and haven’t even been diagnosed yet. But I believe I suffer PTSD or even C-PTSD with the double trauma of my brother’s complicated death AND having been bullied in Pret.
I sabotage myself now in pain and not wanting to go on.
I’ve lost hope, and now with the worldwide trauma of the virus. I keep holding on to my mum’s survival.
Podcast:
> https://www.spreaker.com/user/geerishramgolam/self-sabotage-series-post-traumatic-stre <
The podcast talks about what it is like to live with PTSD and constantly believe that something bad may happen. It also talks about coping skills one can develop to get out of the vulnerable state.
Listen to “Self Sabotage series: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder” on Spreaker.
Much love,
Geerish.
Bullied during bereavement in Pret A Manger 
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